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The past couple of days have been surreal. On Sunday morning Tim preached at a local church of a friend: www.wellspringsenoia.com/ But the thing we have been praying, fasting and anticipating happened last night. It was our first core group meeting of browns mill church. It was awesome. I was in awe of the people that showed up. There were both familiar and unfamiliar faces. Kevin, Suzanne, Jessica and Peter led us in worship and then Tim came up and shared the vision God has given him for browns mill church. It was a vision that hasn't just come to be in the past 6 months. It was an unrealized vision that God had been stirring for years. But now is the time to act on it!
The word surrender can be scary at times. In my mind it would mean uncharted waters, complete trust, lack of being in control...you get the idea. The dictionary says it means to give up or abandon. For so many years I was afraid of surrendering to God's call to start a church. I am just like any woman, I like stability! And starting a church from scratch was the furthest thing from stability I could think of. I watched Tim struggle time after time over what his specific purpose was. So many times we would be making a fair amount of money, have a nice home, had our wonderful children, belong to great churches, and had great friends.
But something was off and we just couldn't put our finger on it. Within this past year I finally knew what that "something" was. It was surrender. Giving up what we think makes sense and pursuing God's plan. And sure enough I have watched Tim's unsettledness turn into passion. You know that saying, "If momma ain't happy, nobody's happy"? Well the same thing could be said about the head of the home. If he isn't fulfilling what and who God created him to be, then something will always be off.
It may seem easier to keep running away because of fear but take it from me, someone who has been there, surrender brings an unexplainable peace and joy. No matter what the circumstances are, when you are living out your unique purpose you will feel settled. And the feeling of settled or at peace is that special something the world is looking for. I was encouraged last night looking around the room. I felt like these people are running towards something great with open arms, not running away because of fear. So, today I surrender my fears, failures, and inadequacies, and run toward the Saviour that brings fulfillment. Oh, and I will have to do this daily!
The word surrender can be scary at times. In my mind it would mean uncharted waters, complete trust, lack of being in control...you get the idea. The dictionary says it means to give up or abandon. For so many years I was afraid of surrendering to God's call to start a church. I am just like any woman, I like stability! And starting a church from scratch was the furthest thing from stability I could think of. I watched Tim struggle time after time over what his specific purpose was. So many times we would be making a fair amount of money, have a nice home, had our wonderful children, belong to great churches, and had great friends.
But something was off and we just couldn't put our finger on it. Within this past year I finally knew what that "something" was. It was surrender. Giving up what we think makes sense and pursuing God's plan. And sure enough I have watched Tim's unsettledness turn into passion. You know that saying, "If momma ain't happy, nobody's happy"? Well the same thing could be said about the head of the home. If he isn't fulfilling what and who God created him to be, then something will always be off.
It may seem easier to keep running away because of fear but take it from me, someone who has been there, surrender brings an unexplainable peace and joy. No matter what the circumstances are, when you are living out your unique purpose you will feel settled. And the feeling of settled or at peace is that special something the world is looking for. I was encouraged last night looking around the room. I felt like these people are running towards something great with open arms, not running away because of fear. So, today I surrender my fears, failures, and inadequacies, and run toward the Saviour that brings fulfillment. Oh, and I will have to do this daily!
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