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Let me tell you about my conversation I had last night with Summer. We were on our way to her softball game and out of the blue she says, "It's weird because I feel happy and sad about moving to plant a church." My response was, "I feel the exact same way!" I thought it was interesting that she had really been thinking about this the past few days. I dropped the bomb on her Sunday night. She was really quiet about it. Of course she said she didn't want to leave Spring Hill (her school) and her best friend that lives two doors down. So I told her it was okay to feel sad but to enjoy them while she has them. And then I quickly told her all the "perks" about moving even though I only half believe them myself right now.
Truth is, when I think of moving I get really sad too! For almost 2 yrs. this is what we have known. We have been incredibly blessed from every angle. I guess we have become well rooted here in Fayetteville. Oh and then I won't even go into thinking about the details of a move including moving boxes. When I think of moving boxes I feel ill. We have been through so much transition in such a small amount of time with too many "moving" stories to tell-most have been blocked out of my mind forever. Will I be able to do this once more?
Of course I will. It doesn't matter how much we have moved in the past or how many bad moving experiences we've had. When I focus too much on those things it makes this all about me. It can easily make my selfishness turn into self pity. The past is the past. Not one of those moves were like this one we are about to take.
With this move we are completely surrendered to our Father and when you are seeking Him with your whole heart, He actually DOES direct you (that's a promise!). What a different perspective knowing this big change is ahead. But the best thing is the perspective of wanting to get into that community to show people how they can know the Jesus we love so much.
I've been so over concerned about how Summer is going to react and feel. But the fact that she admits that she is sad to move away but happy--just the fact that she is a little happy about it means that God is working in her too. God is calling Tim and I to this ministry so that means He is calling Summer, Micah, and Jake as well. This is the happy part about it all! God is going to use us as a family to accomplish His will. Such happiness comes over me when I feel like I am doing exactly what He has created me to do.
So along with all the other emotions, just like Summer I am both happy and sad, but mostly happy because God is growing the desire to move once more. That in itself is a miracle. I just won't think about packing and moving vans until I absolutely have too!
Truth is, when I think of moving I get really sad too! For almost 2 yrs. this is what we have known. We have been incredibly blessed from every angle. I guess we have become well rooted here in Fayetteville. Oh and then I won't even go into thinking about the details of a move including moving boxes. When I think of moving boxes I feel ill. We have been through so much transition in such a small amount of time with too many "moving" stories to tell-most have been blocked out of my mind forever. Will I be able to do this once more?
Of course I will. It doesn't matter how much we have moved in the past or how many bad moving experiences we've had. When I focus too much on those things it makes this all about me. It can easily make my selfishness turn into self pity. The past is the past. Not one of those moves were like this one we are about to take.
With this move we are completely surrendered to our Father and when you are seeking Him with your whole heart, He actually DOES direct you (that's a promise!). What a different perspective knowing this big change is ahead. But the best thing is the perspective of wanting to get into that community to show people how they can know the Jesus we love so much.
I've been so over concerned about how Summer is going to react and feel. But the fact that she admits that she is sad to move away but happy--just the fact that she is a little happy about it means that God is working in her too. God is calling Tim and I to this ministry so that means He is calling Summer, Micah, and Jake as well. This is the happy part about it all! God is going to use us as a family to accomplish His will. Such happiness comes over me when I feel like I am doing exactly what He has created me to do.
So along with all the other emotions, just like Summer I am both happy and sad, but mostly happy because God is growing the desire to move once more. That in itself is a miracle. I just won't think about packing and moving vans until I absolutely have too!
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